I am unlovable. When ever I let someone down or make a mistake I think see no matter how hard I try to make myself lovable I can’t I must be unlovable.
You are so loved. You are beautiful and appreciated. You were created and are cared for.
You do not need to go out and search for this love, it is nocking on your door. Jesus wants to embrace you, he loves you. He is waiting desperately for you to come to him, or perhaps to come back to him.
My independence. It has been my custom to get through things on my own and take on all the responsibility and outcomes. Sometimes I don’t do things because I don’t believe I can handle it on my own.
By letting oter people do things for you you are creating space for connection and thereby space for God to be present. By trying things you’re not sure you can do you are allowing God to show his greatness.
in terms of the addictions i have, i find them difficult to shake loose. they have begun to define me despite my numerous attempts to break the chains.
i enjoyed the resurrection message rob gave, and how resurrection is a new thing springing up right in the middle of our mess. a surprising, refreshing new beginning, yet i still cant seem to break free.
Johnny–
Remember that God is making all things new, every day…even me, even you. Your emotional pain won’t kill you, but the addiction will. Know you are loved even in the midst of that pain and addiction. I hope you have people in your life to reflect that back to you–that you are loved, and loveable, that you don’t have to carry the pain alone, and that God is making you new every day.
Michelle
Feel like evryone hates me, find it hard to believe people like me/love me, get trapped in self destruction, find it hard to trust people, feel worthless..but I
Feel like evryone hates me, find it hard to believe people like me/love me, get trapped in self destruction, find it hard to trust people, feel worthless..but I have a lot of compassion for other people and understand peoples pain because of what Iwent through
Let’s see if we can look at this in a whole new way. For one thing, I can tell you right now that I do not hate you; and I’m sure that if I don’t, then there must be others also that do not hate you. So, that takes care of the “everyone” part of your tainted waters. If you could take that thought captive each time it rears it’s ugly head and think about it for a minute before resigning yourself to the same old patterns of thought, I think you would realize that it is unrealistic to think that everyone would hate you. Throw that salt onto those waters and come away renewed.
I do not know you but I have chosen this evening to love you. I can do that because love does not require anything from it’s subject. You do not have to be any kind of way to be lovable, the choice is up to others. Throw that salt onto those waters each time you feel worthless because you are not unlovable.
Now these things may seem a little simplistic but I can honestly tell you that what I have said is true. I do not hate you and I do love you. Just think of how much more light would be shed on this if you found someone you know, and that you could talk to about this? I’m sure that they will tell you that you mean something to them.
You mentioned a trust issue and I’m thinking that maybe that is keeping you from receiving these good things from other people. The only thing you can do about that is to trust God and be willing to be vulnerable to others. Sometimes that does hurt but that says more about the one inflicting the hurt than it does about you. Throw that salt onto those waters and come away healed.
May you find the wisdom and courage to think about these things in a whole new way. The enemy will not give up easy, persevere my friend Louisa. They say it takes about a month to develop a new habit.
This sermon was beautiful timing for me. The Lord has partnered with me to over come quite a lot. To take a snap shot of my life, a person with perception can see both a painful past and a mighty move of God in my life. Knowing the miracle that I live, I try to sedate myself and say it is enough. But my heart does want more.
I want to be in a loving marriage. I have everything going for me as to say to make this happen, except a highly guarded heart that is raw with fear.
Things have been good for so very long. I don’t want to mess that up by bring a man into the picture. Though I have good male relationships, I draw the line at developing anything that could be romantic and I run at the very hint of it.
I write this not as an emotional voyeurism, but I know there are many women like myself. Those of us who have dealt with our mess and our baggage. We have taken responsibility, forgiven, grown, developed and have drawn deep into God and others. But there is the wall that stops us cold from taking the next step.
The previous things I had to go through have been the casting off, the resisting, the “spiritual warfare.” This is something new, this is the surrender, the trust, the vulnerability. One was assertive, the other is inviting.
I do have a new bowl, I bought just one, I have sea salt too. Today, water is in my bowl, and I have put salt into it.
This sermon may have saved my life and my marriage. I have done unspeakable things to my wife in order to satisfy my own desire to have what I want, when I want, at the cost of everyone around me. My lying and manipulations have hung me multiple times through life, but none more than what I have recently done. I put salt in the water yesterday and am trying to begin anew today. i strayed from God and he sent me the sermon yesterday to say, come back to me. I love you.
OMG – I have been working so long and so hard to overcome the past and the stories I came to believe about myself. Music is very important to me and as I listened to this message I also am reminded of a song from the musical “Wicked” called “Defying Gravity”. Elphaba, who becomes the Wicked Witch of the West has come from seeing her father, the Wizard of Oz and is hurt. She realizes she doesn’t have to stay trapped anymore and play by other people’s games and expectations, but she doesn’t want to do it alone. She wants to break the chains of bondage with Glinda, this is what God wants with us. To break the chains of our bondage with him. To be in relationship with Him.
It’s just so hard though. Trusting God with those deep and painful stories that I’ve believed for so long and many of them involving God. It’s hard to have a relationship with someone you’ve hated for a long time. I am so thankful he knows my heart and that I am trying.
Here are part of the words that so apply to us and God. youtube the song, it’s great – esp if we think of defying gravity with God.
Elphaba “Something has changed within me Something is not the same
I’m through with playing by the rules Of someone else’s game
Too late for second-guessing Too late to go back to sleep
It’s time to trust my instincts Close my eyes: and leap!
It’s time to try Defying gravity
I think I’ll try Defying gravity
And you can’t pull me down!
I’m through accepting limits ”cause someone says they’re so
Some things I cannot change But till I try, I’ll never know!
Too long I’ve been afraid of Losing love I guess I’ve lost
Well, if that’s love It comes at much too high a cost!
I’d sooner buy Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye I’m defying gravity
And you can’t pull me down:
There’s no fight we cannot win
Just you and I Defying gravity
With you and I Defying gravity
I have struggled for a long time with depression and thoughts that my future will be no different from my past. I was really touched by this sermon last week and again today as I refreshed my memory by listening to the podcast. I am one who sees life as a set of disappointments. So often I use the pre modern phrases of ‘just my luck’ and ‘this sort of thing always happens to me.’ Its nice to know that I am not alone, but it will be a challenge for me to change these thought patterns that have become so automatic.
I catch myself believing that God has let me down/abandoned me/disappointed me in the past and because of that I don’t trust Him with my present and my future. I would like to believe as Elisha did that History describes the past and does not determine the future.
I wrote this facebook message to my mom right before I listened to this sermon, “Not today, I forgot all about that funeral and then remembered Friday evening when I was still looking for people to help me with the sale. Being that todays Mothers Day and everybody is busy doing mothers day stuff it would probably just back fire like everything else I’m trying to do.So, I’m just gonna hang out with Starr until she has to go to work. Give the kiddos big hugs for me and thanks again for that cake, its DELICIOUS! Love you Mommy ”
I was thinking about this line, “it would probably just back fire like everything else I’m trying to do” the whole time Rob was speaking after he made his point… craziness…
A tip to save some bucks when enjoying films it that as a substitute for going to the cinema on a busy saturday try leasing your dvds. The regular fee to rent a DVD is lesser than 1 / 2 the cost of just one movie ticket at your normal cinema. Another benefit is that you might probably hire about 4 movies via your regional video shop for the same price as 2 tickets at the movie theater.
I am unlovable. When ever I let someone down or make a mistake I think see no matter how hard I try to make myself lovable I can’t I must be unlovable.
Mary,
You are so loved. You are beautiful and appreciated. You were created and are cared for.
You do not need to go out and search for this love, it is nocking on your door. Jesus wants to embrace you, he loves you. He is waiting desperately for you to come to him, or perhaps to come back to him.
Thanks Ben. I will remember that when I hear the lies I tell myself. God is speaking a fresh word to me through you.
My independence. It has been my custom to get through things on my own and take on all the responsibility and outcomes. Sometimes I don’t do things because I don’t believe I can handle it on my own.
By letting oter people do things for you you are creating space for connection and thereby space for God to be present. By trying things you’re not sure you can do you are allowing God to show his greatness.
in terms of the addictions i have, i find them difficult to shake loose. they have begun to define me despite my numerous attempts to break the chains.
i enjoyed the resurrection message rob gave, and how resurrection is a new thing springing up right in the middle of our mess. a surprising, refreshing new beginning, yet i still cant seem to break free.
Johnny–
Remember that God is making all things new, every day…even me, even you. Your emotional pain won’t kill you, but the addiction will. Know you are loved even in the midst of that pain and addiction. I hope you have people in your life to reflect that back to you–that you are loved, and loveable, that you don’t have to carry the pain alone, and that God is making you new every day.
Michelle
Feel like evryone hates me, find it hard to believe people like me/love me, get trapped in self destruction, find it hard to trust people, feel worthless..but I
Feel like evryone hates me, find it hard to believe people like me/love me, get trapped in self destruction, find it hard to trust people, feel worthless..but I have a lot of compassion for other people and understand peoples pain because of what Iwent through
Louisa,
Let’s see if we can look at this in a whole new way. For one thing, I can tell you right now that I do not hate you; and I’m sure that if I don’t, then there must be others also that do not hate you. So, that takes care of the “everyone” part of your tainted waters. If you could take that thought captive each time it rears it’s ugly head and think about it for a minute before resigning yourself to the same old patterns of thought, I think you would realize that it is unrealistic to think that everyone would hate you. Throw that salt onto those waters and come away renewed.
I do not know you but I have chosen this evening to love you. I can do that because love does not require anything from it’s subject. You do not have to be any kind of way to be lovable, the choice is up to others. Throw that salt onto those waters each time you feel worthless because you are not unlovable.
Now these things may seem a little simplistic but I can honestly tell you that what I have said is true. I do not hate you and I do love you. Just think of how much more light would be shed on this if you found someone you know, and that you could talk to about this? I’m sure that they will tell you that you mean something to them.
You mentioned a trust issue and I’m thinking that maybe that is keeping you from receiving these good things from other people. The only thing you can do about that is to trust God and be willing to be vulnerable to others. Sometimes that does hurt but that says more about the one inflicting the hurt than it does about you. Throw that salt onto those waters and come away healed.
May you find the wisdom and courage to think about these things in a whole new way. The enemy will not give up easy, persevere my friend Louisa. They say it takes about a month to develop a new habit.
Peace and Love,
Michael Cole
you just described my life homey, good to know I’m not alone
This sermon was beautiful timing for me. The Lord has partnered with me to over come quite a lot. To take a snap shot of my life, a person with perception can see both a painful past and a mighty move of God in my life. Knowing the miracle that I live, I try to sedate myself and say it is enough. But my heart does want more.
I want to be in a loving marriage. I have everything going for me as to say to make this happen, except a highly guarded heart that is raw with fear.
Things have been good for so very long. I don’t want to mess that up by bring a man into the picture. Though I have good male relationships, I draw the line at developing anything that could be romantic and I run at the very hint of it.
I write this not as an emotional voyeurism, but I know there are many women like myself. Those of us who have dealt with our mess and our baggage. We have taken responsibility, forgiven, grown, developed and have drawn deep into God and others. But there is the wall that stops us cold from taking the next step.
The previous things I had to go through have been the casting off, the resisting, the “spiritual warfare.” This is something new, this is the surrender, the trust, the vulnerability. One was assertive, the other is inviting.
I do have a new bowl, I bought just one, I have sea salt too. Today, water is in my bowl, and I have put salt into it.
You are not alone.
This sermon may have saved my life and my marriage. I have done unspeakable things to my wife in order to satisfy my own desire to have what I want, when I want, at the cost of everyone around me. My lying and manipulations have hung me multiple times through life, but none more than what I have recently done. I put salt in the water yesterday and am trying to begin anew today. i strayed from God and he sent me the sermon yesterday to say, come back to me. I love you.
OMG – I have been working so long and so hard to overcome the past and the stories I came to believe about myself. Music is very important to me and as I listened to this message I also am reminded of a song from the musical “Wicked” called “Defying Gravity”. Elphaba, who becomes the Wicked Witch of the West has come from seeing her father, the Wizard of Oz and is hurt. She realizes she doesn’t have to stay trapped anymore and play by other people’s games and expectations, but she doesn’t want to do it alone. She wants to break the chains of bondage with Glinda, this is what God wants with us. To break the chains of our bondage with him. To be in relationship with Him.
It’s just so hard though. Trusting God with those deep and painful stories that I’ve believed for so long and many of them involving God. It’s hard to have a relationship with someone you’ve hated for a long time. I am so thankful he knows my heart and that I am trying.
Here are part of the words that so apply to us and God. youtube the song, it’s great – esp if we think of defying gravity with God.
Elphaba “Something has changed within me Something is not the same
I’m through with playing by the rules Of someone else’s game
Too late for second-guessing Too late to go back to sleep
It’s time to trust my instincts Close my eyes: and leap!
It’s time to try Defying gravity
I think I’ll try Defying gravity
And you can’t pull me down!
I’m through accepting limits ”cause someone says they’re so
Some things I cannot change But till I try, I’ll never know!
Too long I’ve been afraid of Losing love I guess I’ve lost
Well, if that’s love It comes at much too high a cost!
I’d sooner buy Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye I’m defying gravity
And you can’t pull me down:
There’s no fight we cannot win
Just you and I Defying gravity
With you and I Defying gravity
I have struggled for a long time with depression and thoughts that my future will be no different from my past. I was really touched by this sermon last week and again today as I refreshed my memory by listening to the podcast. I am one who sees life as a set of disappointments. So often I use the pre modern phrases of ‘just my luck’ and ‘this sort of thing always happens to me.’ Its nice to know that I am not alone, but it will be a challenge for me to change these thought patterns that have become so automatic.
I catch myself believing that God has let me down/abandoned me/disappointed me in the past and because of that I don’t trust Him with my present and my future. I would like to believe as Elisha did that History describes the past and does not determine the future.
I wrote this facebook message to my mom right before I listened to this sermon, “Not today, I forgot all about that funeral and then remembered Friday evening when I was still looking for people to help me with the sale. Being that todays Mothers Day and everybody is busy doing mothers day stuff it would probably just back fire like everything else I’m trying to do.So, I’m just gonna hang out with Starr until she has to go to work. Give the kiddos big hugs for me and thanks again for that cake, its DELICIOUS! Love you Mommy
”
I was thinking about this line, “it would probably just back fire like everything else I’m trying to do” the whole time Rob was speaking after he made his point… craziness…
A tip to save some bucks when enjoying films it that as a substitute for going to the cinema on a busy saturday try leasing your dvds. The regular fee to rent a DVD is lesser than 1 / 2 the cost of just one movie ticket at your normal cinema. Another benefit is that you might probably hire about 4 movies via your regional video shop for the same price as 2 tickets at the movie theater.